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surgery [Dec. 5th, 2009|01:35 pm]
[Current Mood | grumpy]
[Current Music |Watered Down - The Used]

I just watched the newest video of Shane Dawson on his second channel. He talked about his surgery and I realized I still haven't talk about mine.

My teeth were really messed up so I went to see an orthodontist 1½ year ago. He saw from the beginning that my mouth wasn't closing how it should. I could either get a surgery to get it fix or he could do something else. But the "something else" wasn't as sure. I decided to get the surgery. If I was going to do something, I would do it the right way.

They show me pictures of a boy who didn't get the surgery. One year after they remove his braces, his teeth move. He had to get braces again and then get the surgery.

I met the surgeon few time before the surgery and he explain everything he would do. I wasn't too worry about it because I knew he knew exactly what he was doing.

To make it short, he had to cut the bone in my jaw at a few places. He did all that from the inside of my mouth ( I think most, if not all, of the stitches are gone now). He also had to cut my skin to place two screws (I'm sorry I wish I was able to explain that better). I had stitches for a week and now I have a really tiny scar on each side of my jaw.

When I woke up after the surgery I threw up a lot of blood I had swallow during the surgery. I spend one night there. The next day the surgeon came to see me and said that everything went fine. I got told I was brave. I was only feeling stupid. It took me a few day to stop thinking that.

I had pills for the pain when I went back home. They probably made me throw up more than anything else. They were not relieving the pain I had.

My face was swollen and it got worst for the next 48 hours. After that, it slowly went away. It's going to take a while before it all goes away. People who don't know me probably don't notice it by now.

The other thing is that they had to move the nerves. I could have lost the sensibility at the bottom of my face but I didn't. For the first few days I could barely feel anything. Now it's getting better.

The worst thing about the surgery is that for a while I can't eat what I want. For 2 (almost 3) I could only eat liquid or in purée. I almost had to force feed myself the first week. I lost 10 pounds, which is normal but I find it annoying. My mom seem more obsess with my weight than me.

Now I can eat soft food like mash potatoes or scramble eggs. Things that doesn't really need to be chew.I was actually excited to finally eat with a fork. My mom try to get me to eat more but she's getting on my nerves. It make me want to eat even less. I feel like I'm spending half of my day either eating or preparing what I'm going to eat.

I'm tired of not being able to eat what I want. Usually between meals my snack can be either sweet (like fruits) or salted (potatoes chips). Now it's only sweet thing and it's driving me crazy. I was seriously about to open a bag of potatoes chips yesterday to lick them just to have the taste.

I'm seeing my surgeon again Tuesday. I can't wait to know when I'll be able to eat solid food.
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art project [Nov. 8th, 2009|12:15 am]
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[Current Mood | accomplished]

Here's what I was talking about yesterday.

Outline:


Colour:


Over my mirror:


It took my few hours. I did it on the floor of the living room, it wasn't really comfortable.

The problem is that I don't know if I will want to take it down after. I should think about where I'm going to place it when I will want my mirror back. XD
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4 years [Nov. 6th, 2009|12:16 pm]
[Current Mood | uncomfortable]

My first post was 4 years ago. I still don't post much here. But somehow, I feel like I want to write more here and less on my French LJ. It might not be a good thing because I usually complain here. XD

Nothing special this year because I'm lazy. It's my last day of work tonight. I don't even how long it will take before they call me back...

Other than that, I'm working on something to cover up the mirror in my room. I'm trying to find a way to hide the really big one in the bathroom. Mirrors will probably be my enemies next week.
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stupid fright [Nov. 2nd, 2009|01:13 pm]
[Current Mood | annoyed]

Friday night, I ended up in an empty parking lot waiting for a guy I don't like to give me a ride. To make thing worst, the wind was really strong and Thriller was playing on the radio when we got in his car. And his passenger door is kinda hark to open. Everything to make me feel like in  an horror movie.

I was trying not to laugh when I realized how stupid it was.

My dad work on the same shift as me last week and the week before. The first week we went to work with his truck and last week with my car. The first Friday, I told him "if you leave before midnight you have to come back to pick me up".

Not taking my car was annoying me, having to ask someone for a ride would have pissed me off. So last week I thought that if he wanted to leave before midnight, it wouldn't be my problem. I was wrong.

At 10, he told me he was leaving and asked me for my car keys. He said that he didn't have any more work to do. I was kinda mad 'cause I wanted to leave too. I gave him my keys and asked him if he was coming back to pick me up at midnight. Nope, my boss will give me a ride. It didn't help my mood, I don't like him.

What I learn when I finally came back home is that my father asked the boss if anyone else was leaving at 10. He could could have ask that someone a ride. There was no one so my dad told him that he would take my car and come back. What did my boss said? That he didn't mind giving me a ride.

Why my father agreed to that is beyond me. He know I don't like the guy. I had to wait for him to close the place. And for him to close, he had to make sure everyone had left so he wouldn't lock someone inside. x_x
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what were they thinking? [Oct. 4th, 2009|03:33 pm]
[Current Mood | pleased]

My mom told me that she finally found someone who wanted our bird. He called to said he would come today around 2:30. My parents decided to leave because they had something to do. I heard them said they would come back around 2:30.

With my luck, the guy would have been there before my parents. I left at 1:30 and made sure I wouldn't be back before 3.

The guy left few minutes ago. My parents told me they were counting on me because I'm always at home. That I could have call them if they guy arrive earlier.

Well, that is why I left. Why should I been the one to deal with him? I don't know him, my parents don't know him either. Real safe. If it would have been a friend of them, it would have been fine but not a total stranger!
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(no subject) [Oct. 2nd, 2009|11:22 am]
[Current Mood | tired]

I finally thought I would get a good night sleep. I went to bed at around 2:15 and it didn't take me too long to fall asleep.

Next thing I know, my mom is at my door and tell me I have to pick up my dad at his job (I work there too). She can't reach him and something happen to her store.

It's barely past 3am and I don't think I can't drive so I ask her if she's coming with me. I dress up a little bit, there's no way I'm going back to work in my PJ. I grab my card (I need it to get in) and my mom drive, a little too fast.

Once I get there, I need to find my dad. He work on the other side of where I work and I never been there since they made all the changes. I can't even try to ask someone, there's close to no one working night.

Luckily there's no boss because I don't have my safety shoes, my ear-plug and my safety glasses. I don't know if it's because I was still half asleep but everything seems kinda blurry.

My mom want me to be fast but I still need to be careful. It's not to time to get hurt or something. I'm relieve went I find him. I tell him someone crash his car in her store. She have no idea what it's like because she didn't see it yet.

I went with them, I wouldn't have fall asleep before my mom came back. It wasn't too bad, the guy crash in one of the corner. He was racing with another car and all his friends ran away after the crash. Too bad he didn't destroy the thing from the neighbour (there's some thing that my parents want to see disappear XD).

The worst thing is that my parents had renovate the whole outside of the building. They paid for it Tuesday. My mom was able to laugh about it, asking the policeman if it was because the guy didn't like the new colour. She was glad that the guy who renovate, took pictures the other day.

I went back to bed around 4:10. Took me a while to fall asleep. So right now, I'm really tired!
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birthday gift [Sep. 28th, 2009|02:46 pm]
[Current Mood | pleased]

Few years ago I started to draw music note around my ankle every once in a while. I always thought that if I ever got a tattoo, it would be that. But it's not that original, right?

Months ago I asked my brother to draw something for me, something I knew nobody else would have. When he gave it to me he said he would come with me to get an appointment. He's not easy to reach and I didn't see him much even when he came back living with us for 5 months. So I never went.

For my birthday, my parents decided to paid for that tattoo. My father was suppose to come with me the next Saturday. He forgot, I didn't remind him and I was kinda pissed off.

I told myself I would go on Monday. I HAD to go on Monday. Somehow I wanted to prove myself I was able to do something on my own. And I did. I went to take an appointment, the next day. I didn't tell anyone.

I spent the whole evening stressed. And I'm not even talking about something else that came up that day. I barely slept.

When I came back from my appointment, I called my brother at work to know when he had a break. I only told him I wanted to show him something. When he saw it he was proud of me. ^_^

I had to bring something to my mom at her work. Since I'm not really good to keep thing about me, I showed her. She was surprise. My father too, when I showed him hours later.

I'm really happy about it. It's itching right now and I can't touch it. Argh. No picture, the one I took when I came back from my appointment suck and I really can't take picture of it right now.
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New [Sep. 17th, 2009|12:25 pm]
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[Current Mood | okay]

New layout. Unless you have a 1440x900 screen, it probably doesn't look good.

It should look like that:



It's not that I love Beast and Joker that much. I wanted something related to Kuroshitsuji. At first I wanted to take the image from "Smile" and "Black" but with all the writing, it wouldn't have look good. :/

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22 years old [Sep. 12th, 2009|10:50 pm]
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[Current Mood | pleased]

Yesterday was my birthday. Got a lot of people at my job wishing me a happy birthday. Which was nice 'cause I had a pretty shitty day before going to work. 2 peoples decided to sign and a 3rd one joined them. XD

Few weeks ago, I showed a cake to my mom, that I thought was pretty nice. I told her it wasn't what I wanted for my birthday. I only wanted to show it to her because she is doing cake every once in a while for her job.

She didn't listen to me and she made me a cake inspired by the one I showed her.



1. She not a professional so no bad comment about it please.
2. It was the first time she was doing a titled cake, didn't work out as well as she wanted.
3. It's a real flower, she didn't have a place for an apple (hence the edible image), the check pieces are made of chocolate.

The last tier could serve 20 peoples. We were only four. XD We eat the top one, my brother left with the second one (he will try to get his roommate to eat some of it). And my mom will give some of what's left to some of her friends.

I will talked about my birthday gift later, when I get it. I'm nervous.
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August 15th 2009 [Aug. 16th, 2009|10:59 pm]
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[Current Mood | thoughtful]

My second ADIML. Still not sure about posting it on the community. :/

I spent too much time at the computer and in front of a television. But at least I was outside for a while.



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The Essential Michael Jackson [Jul. 23rd, 2009|02:35 pm]
[Current Mood | happy]

I know I complain a lot so I decided that for once I should tell something positive.

I needed some  things before I leave for vacations Sunday. And I couldnt help but go at the HMV at the same time. I kinda wanted "The Essential Michael Jackson". So after spending a good 15 minutes in the store, I take the CD and go to pay.

I gave the CD to the guy and take my wallet out of my purse. While I did that, he told me "you're going to see, your teeth going to look great after that" (talking about my braces).

I was a little surprise. It's the first time in over a year someone I don't know make a comment about that. I have to say, I'm tired of everyone telling me that. But coming from that guy, it made me smile. I thought it was really sweet.

He made my day even if I didn't needed it. ^_^
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Marie, there's two left. [Jul. 3rd, 2009|01:15 am]
[Current Mood | cynical]
[Current Music |Sun Come Up - The Used]

Sentence of the day: "Marie, there's two left".

1. Don't call me like that. I don't like you and you should always call me by my full name.

2. What the fuck are you talking about? There's two what left? I'm guessing you're talking about the storage bins. Yeah, there's 200 left in the department. Which one are you talking about?

3. You've been standing there for 10 minutes watching us work. I've been running around to empty everything I could before midnight. Could you please get the fuck out of my sight. -- We're doing the inventory in our department next week. We had to take all the pieces and put them all together. There's a million different pieces and sometime there's 2 to 8 bins at different place of the same thing.

Seriously, I didn't get it. You should have seen my face when he told me that there's was a lot of thing to do.

That's my boss trying to get friendly with me or something like that. It's so not working. One time he look at me and sigh really loudly. What did he expected me to say? Yes, I'm exhausted, something tell me you're not.

I am now ignoring him unless he talk to me.

And believe me, it's not because it's my boss that I hate him.

( My others boss, I guess )
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A Day In My Life [May. 27th, 2009|02:32 pm]
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[Current Mood | working]

I found out [info]adayinmylife the other day. I love the idea and tried to do it last week. But for some reason, I'd rather not post the result over there. So it's here instead. I hope you'll enjoy it as much as I did doing it.



So this is my May 18th, 2009.

( Total: 58 pictures )
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finally [May. 18th, 2009|05:56 pm]
[Current Mood | calm]

I was kinda sick of my last layout so I change it. Like always, took me way too long to do it. I always change my mind at some point.

The thing on the left is my name in kanji. Or at least I hope it is. I spent a lot of time to find it. I could have wrote my first name in a different way but I think it's what represent me better.
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I feel invisible sometime [Apr. 30th, 2009|11:01 am]
[Current Mood | amused]

I went to a restaurant yesterday for my mom's birthday and she had invited some of her friends. One of them like to tease me but I never know what to say. If it was my family I would answer right away but with him, I just froze and laugh awkwardly.

They often talk about the choir they're in. So I usually end up talking to no one but my father. It was getting way too boring for me so I came back home, walking.

Once at home, my father call to tell me the friends of my mom were coming home and to clean up a little bit. I did and went outside.

I was sitting in the stair at the back of the house. At one point, I notice my father is back and I see him going to put something in the trash outside. He didn't notice me. He went back inside and I thought maybe he'd see me and come to say hi (we have a glass door) but he didn't.

So I was wondering how long it would take for him to call me on my cell. When he did, I answer with "I'm right outside". He apologize by saying he didn't see me and he came outside to talk. XD
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haircut [Apr. 11th, 2009|10:06 pm]
[Current Mood | embarrassed]

I have the same hairdresser (Johanne) since 1995. I went somewhere else yesterday for the first time since then. I only wanted to change the color but she cut them too. It's different but not too much and I love it.

Tonight I went to a restaurant with my parents. All of a sudden they wave at someone, I turn around to see Serge, Johanne's husband. My mom told me it was Johanne. I then reply that I could have guess since I saw Serge. I can't remember seeing her anywhere else than where she work before.

My father said later that she was looking at my hair. Like my mom said, I could go back and she won't even ask question. She doesn't mind and she understand we can go somewhere else.

But seriously, for the first time I'm going somewhere else, I have to see her the very next day. *face palm*

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parking war? [Apr. 2nd, 2009|09:48 pm]
[Current Mood | bitchy]

I've been trying to calm down but nothing seem to work. I still want to punch/throw/break something.

My brother came back to live here in February. He was suppose to pay a rent, just like me.

Few days ago, I was pissed off (and I still am) about something that have to do with him. I said it was unfair that he had priority since he don't even pay a rent.

My father told me that he did. I said that I didn't know they finally had an agreement, I asked him since when. He told me that he and my mother still didn't know how much my brother would pay. Which means I was right. My brother doesn't fucking pay to live here (at the moment).

They want me to park my car in the street so he can park is scooter in our shed. What piss me off it's that I had to park in the street even before he came back, WTF!? (there's enough space for two cars but my brother can't get his scooter out of the shed)

And I'm not even talking about the last 2 weeks of March. (something to do with laws about parking in the street and tire in winter...)

Can we built a garage so I can park my car in it? Me too I'm scare someone might steal it. Like that we'll be able to park two cars and my brother's scooter. Everyone we'll be happy. =)

Still want to destroy something, would be better if I can do it with my hands.
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Facebook [Feb. 27th, 2009|11:34 am]
[Current Mood | hungry]

I joined Facebook 2 weeks ago. I never wanted too 'cause I thought no one would add me. But someone invited me so I thought, why not? At least I'll have one person. And if no one add me after a certain amount of time, I'm out of here. Obviously I was wrong and I already few friends.

We have a secondary school reunion in less then 2 month. I thought that maybe it be useful to now what's going on. I heard that a guy was arranging thing for that. He add me this morning which surprise me. As far as I can remember he never really like me. And I know him since first grade. I only added him because he have something to do with the reunion.

Some people are strange on Facebook.

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(no subject) [Feb. 1st, 2009|11:25 pm]
[Current Mood | distressed]
[Current Music |Life - Yui]

A part of me don't even want to write this. A part of me would like to sit  in the dark and not do anything.

There's things that worried me every once in a while. I try not to think about it 'cause I know it won't happen soon.

Like moving out of here. I would love to have my space because I don't have enough right now. I have too many things for the room I have. When I thought about it, I thought it would be best to stay 'til summer 2010.

With my brother moving back with us this week-end, my mom said that there was only one year and an half left to me. Meaning that I should leave by that time.

I told her that I already had  thought about it, that it's what I wished. But that I wasn't sure if I would be ready.

I don't have a social life. I see my family, peoples at work and that's is. On here, there's on guy who talk to me every once in a while (only when he have an issue with his girlfriend). And most of the time, I'm "Appear Offline" on MSN.

I had few friends when I was in school but I'm not talking to then anymore. Now, when someone talk to me, I'm not even trying. I did try before but I always ended up being hurt in some ways.

I'm saying that because I fear that if it's still the same next year, it's only going to be worst.

When I said that, I'm glad at least my father understood what I was implying. I will be even more alone and more scared of speaking with people.

And I freaking hate that most of my post are like this one. I feel a little bit better though.
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What the hell!? [Jan. 9th, 2009|01:20 am]
[Current Mood | exhausted]

I'm exhausted from all the shovelling I had to do in the past 2 days. I'm not used to do that and I wasn't working really fast tonight 'cause all my upper body hurt. Anyhow, I just wanted to come back home and relax.

I'm going to my car, open the back door to put my things. When I came to open my door I wasn't able. It was stuck or something. I keep pulling, nothing happen. The guy to who I give a ride ask me if it's seriously stuck (no, I just to love to pretend it is, I'm practising to become a mime). He come to my side, open the door just like that. He then told me that I must have pulled it the wrong way.

WTF? There's not a million way to open a door. Must be because I really don't have much strength left in my arms.

I felt like an idiot for a second.
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